Reawakening

I want to know. To recover my curiosity, recover my enthusiasm for life, my obsession with knowledge, with facts, truth, philosophy, nature, science.

I want to learn, to think, talk, question. I want to collect old LPs. I want to love with passion. To ride a motorbike. To share my life with a lover.

I want a child-like spirit of enthusiasm and energy in my life.

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I know the secret – there is no secret. The revelation is here, now. There is no hidden truth save that which you hide from, which you yourself make obscure.

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Old paths well trodden,
Familiar sights, sounds,
Tired, lazy, comfortable old places;
Old songs; reruns; memories,
Memoirs.
Yesterday once more.

American Dream, freedom,
Wealth, Prosperity, Happiness
Yes its possible, but
Not by following the mass ideals.

Look inside, look outside,
Look around, look, look, look.

Awareness, looking, seeing,
Listening, sensing all the newness.
All the possibilities, infinite opportunities.

How much can you learn?
How much can you love?
How many new paths can you imagine,
Can you tread?

There is no limit besides death.
So live now,
Dance, sing, love, learn.
Open your heart, listen to everything.
Be open, be an open book.

Write whatever you want on the blank pages,
Feel the weather, Leave the dust behind.
Fly into the sun,
Fling yourself with abandon into the ecstasy.

Swim beneath the waves,
Climb the peaks,
Explore the valleys,
Live with passion,
Live with fire.

Love with desire,
Write with your soul,
Walk without fear.

Life has much shit -
Crap, excrement, problems, tragedy, pain –
Life is full of idiots;

Yes, I can be an idiot and so can you.
I have shit too. We all have it in our lives.
There is pain, suffering.

There is death, evil, malice, rage,
Cruelty, war, terror, corruption,
Murder, lying, inhumanity, now and forever.

None of that is reduced in the least by being miserable,
Your life is not improved one iota by feeling down about the shit.
Cynicism, bitterness, depression, apathy are pointless,
Destructive to the carrier.

They are nuclear weapons which kill all life around them,
Including eventually the bearer, you.
The energy of death and destruction is fed by
Misery, depression, apathy and resignation.

No amount of suffering, misery, apathy or resignation
Will ever improve your life.

Those old pathways are there, well worn in many of us.
They are comforting, familiar, safe.
They are limiting;
They lead to self-sabotage,
To a life of struggle, of more suffering
More resignation.

They lead to the absence of desire,
The emptiness that feeds your emptiness,
The black place where you feel trapped and safe,
Frustrated and hopeless.

But you can abandon old paths.
Seeing the mountain stream through a gap in the undergrowth,
You can rush to it, dive in,
Swim, be free in the flowing energy of the earth.
The cold fresh purity can clean your heart,
Only if you take the risk and dive in.

You’re creating new paths, new paths
To lightness, to find happiness amongst the opportunities;
You can make new paths wherever you want.
There is no limit except your desire.
Look for paths of light, growth, exploration
Look for paths of love, courage, curiosity,
Discovery.

Tread these new paths,
Find new ones every day; run along them,
Feel the thrill;

Forget the old paths;
They will never disappear, but like mountain tracks,
They will be reclaimed by nature.
You are part of nature,
A living being, a creature of the earth.
Let the earth reclaim its paths,
Let it heal your suffering,

All you need to do is follow the new paths you find,
Explore with all your might.
Let the earth feed your power.
Let the water refresh you.
Let people touch you,
Opening your heart to them.

Let the old paths become lost in the past,
Let your old habits of self-destruction become
Lost in new growth.

New life can open up to you if you look for it,
Keep asking questions, keep looking
For new paths.

Look for new love, new energy,
New passion, new learning;

Abandon the old grip of destructive self-sabotage;
Allow it to weaken and fade, to die from
Neglect, disuse.

Feed the growing passion which flows through you,
Through the earth and the universe, if you let it.

Feed the enthusiasm, Let it take you
Where your heart wants to go;
If it feels right it is right.

Explode into life with the unimaginable
Possibilities inside and all around you.